Monday, June 25, 2012

To Be Or ...


What it must be like to know and experience happiness every moment of your life?
To be unafraid of anything, to live life with an unbending faith and love?
To brim with shining confidence and to have the sheer determination to do the right thing?
To be loved and respected for what you are despite of who you are?
To forgive and ask for forgiveness and finally to get it?
To be not timid,shy or embarrassed for little nothings?
To be yourself, only a better version?
The version which you have always dreamed you would grow up to be?

Strange and Stranger


There is a huge beautiful tree in a faraway land, it always talks to me in my sleep.
It is the tallest tree i have ever come across, both in reality and in my dreams.
It's branches are strong but not very broad, just the correct width.
The trunk of the tree is a lovely shade of brown, always reminds me of dark chocolate in all it's perfection.
The leaves are the greenest shade of green, as if they have just been watered. Shining and brimming with the beauty and life of nature.
The tree always tells me to come and visit her frequently but i always laugh it off.
In the dream it’s not only me and the tree, there are other things which force me to think of that dream often and i do (think).
Besides the tree, there are a host of other people present. People i know and also those i don’t. There are pixies, elves, wizards, witches, fairies, dwarves, all kinds of fantastical creatures imaginable. Animals and birds too. 
They are all there having fun and enjoying themselves with not a sign of worry on their faces.
I always walk in the dream towards the tree and while i am talking to it, these other creatures start appearing magically out of thin air and they all start chattering as if i do not exist.
But nothing bothers me, nothing at all for in the middle of such happiness can any kind of trouble upset anyone?
I am amazingly happy in my dream, i am witty, charming. I am the best version of myself in that dream.
But suddenly the dream breaks off and i am transported into this other dream.
In that dream everything is dark and the sky is always a queer shape of grey.
It starts to rain in the dream and to my utmost horror it’s blood and dirty mud.
I hear somebody howling and i look around to see where the noise is coming from and then i look upwards, towards the sky.
Three massive clouds have joined together and taken the shape of a huge wolf-like dog.
The thing opens it's mouth and i break into a run almost immediately.
I am running, always running until i wake up from the nightmare sweating...  

Monday, June 11, 2012

Faith

After months of reflecting and questioning, i have finally found it.
It is wonderful to know that despite everything, good or bad, you have that one thing to comfort you.
I am still sort of struggling with mine but it's there and hopefully will always be there with me.